As usual it never rains but pours. My diabetic is not good I haven’t managed to keep my sugar levels under control. Now I am on Metformin. Not happy Jan as I was hoping to beat type 2 with diet and lifestyle changes. Where am I going wrong? Well not exactly keeping my stress levels down by starting a business I suppose. Some drinking and a little smoking. I am particularly annoyed about my inability to resist smokes as it has an immediate horrific affect on my digestion and energy levels. Second challenge is Menopause. Yes I am menopausal and it makes me hot and sweaty. I have never been a sweater. Now I am drenched some nights. Tired and moody. So what should I do about this one? Well I have always been causious about medication. I have been told in the past that I was depressed and hsould go on anti depressents and I have gone as far as purcahsing them and something told me that I should try a different way. So I took myself away for awhile and that experience of being alone,as painful and insane as I was it gave me insights into my own behavious so much it made me a better person. More compassionate and forgiving of myself and others. I diagress.
So I am reading about pro and against HRT . Apparently there are women in some asian countries that have no syptoms at all. Will I be spared the worse symptoms? How bad is bad? I suppose I am going to findout. After all I am in the midst of it. There are some +++. I have never liked the cold but at the moment my body has the weiredst and the best sensation to cold wind.
I am getting more irritable therefore more outspoken. Good to be able to say speak my mind once in awhile without worrying about people’s reactions all the time.
I am getting more aware of the limited time we have on this earth. Things change and my health and wealth have both deteriorated and I need to now rebuild both with lessons I learnt so far applying new rules and living my own dreams. First I must know what they are. I got my work cut out infront of me. But its all going to be good.
